from no where

The thoughts creep in like they always do...
from out of no where.
Then I'm lost.
Lost in thoughts of him again.
Wondering what he's doing, How is he?
Does he ever have this same problem?
Where I invade his thoughts from out of the blue.
I've come so far
Building walls back up...
protecting my heart.
Remembering how foolish I truly was
to fall so fast, so deep.
Knowing he was never mine,
never to keep, never to touch.
Did he enjoy his game of cat and mouse with my heart?
How crazy I am to feel something?
So back to the start to rebuild walls again.
Till the next time my own mind plays the wreaking ball
pushing him into me again.