words

It burns
the words swirl in a septic pool of rot.
Trapped with in my mind,
wanting
to break free of this prison
Hands can not move fast enough to
spread ink to page.
single thought
bursting at it's seem
splinter to a thousand
compound to a million.
A jumble mess hidden
behind the eyes.
will not speak
to afraid to write
for there is no understanding
my
riddleish speak.

reality

To be so dark
it's almost black
lack of heart
to save soul
consumed by light
to be so blind
in the coming night
lost hope
of realities release.

Birth of dispair

The deapths of my
Soul are
Tinted, painted
Black.
No light may reach
To save me from myself,
To save from all I am.
deep within a forgotten shell
Of who I thought I would once be.
Given freely
To to the
Sweet freedom
Of
My
Own
Dispair

a hope and a dream

Everyday I wake with a hope and a dream,
that there will come a knock on my door.
When I open it, there you will be,
smiling, holding flowers
waiting for me to let you in.


The seconds turn to minutes, to hours
day to night.
There is no knock,
it's never you
there are no flowers or smile meant for me.
You have not a clue where to look.


But still I hope,
still I dream
for something that will never be.

Gone

I had finally stopped thinking you'd run-


You said,
You said you would fight
for me.
Lead me to believe giving up was never a choice
Yet,
there you go, walking away,
out of my life
without even a good bye




Gone like the wind
never to breeze threw
the empty cavern of my heart.

Bottle

Tip it up
Chug it down
feelings drown
just useless dribble
answers fooled to believed
they were hiding in the bottom
of a bottle
one gone


Smooth and warm
fire burn what is left
numbness
blurred lines of pain 
loosened lips
spill what wont be remembered 


Tears fill the river
of what was lost
no going back
seeing only the whims and dreams
swimming in the bottle on the table.

Let Go

She finally saw and heard the truth from him.
 - He had let it all out in a
    crazy, dizzying state.
 - He knew how much he loved her, He would be lost with out her, but...
    Having her would destroy so many lives.
 -with her he was complete
   he was the man he wanted to be.
   she made him whole, He would forever be with her.


She had never and will never love anyone as much as she does him.
Knowing what she did now, she knew it would never work for them.


The dream was over
It was time to wake up.


-He begged her to stay
   Professed his endless, undying love
  He would wait for her.


Salty tears mixed in with the bitter sweetness of the last kiss.
It was done.


She loved him so much
she let go for them both.