a hope and a dream

Everyday I wake with a hope and a dream,
that there will come a knock on my door.
When I open it, there you will be,
smiling, holding flowers
waiting for me to let you in.


The seconds turn to minutes, to hours
day to night.
There is no knock,
it's never you
there are no flowers or smile meant for me.
You have not a clue where to look.


But still I hope,
still I dream
for something that will never be.

Gone

I had finally stopped thinking you'd run-


You said,
You said you would fight
for me.
Lead me to believe giving up was never a choice
Yet,
there you go, walking away,
out of my life
without even a good bye




Gone like the wind
never to breeze threw
the empty cavern of my heart.

Bottle

Tip it up
Chug it down
feelings drown
just useless dribble
answers fooled to believed
they were hiding in the bottom
of a bottle
one gone


Smooth and warm
fire burn what is left
numbness
blurred lines of pain 
loosened lips
spill what wont be remembered 


Tears fill the river
of what was lost
no going back
seeing only the whims and dreams
swimming in the bottle on the table.

Let Go

She finally saw and heard the truth from him.
 - He had let it all out in a
    crazy, dizzying state.
 - He knew how much he loved her, He would be lost with out her, but...
    Having her would destroy so many lives.
 -with her he was complete
   he was the man he wanted to be.
   she made him whole, He would forever be with her.


She had never and will never love anyone as much as she does him.
Knowing what she did now, she knew it would never work for them.


The dream was over
It was time to wake up.


-He begged her to stay
   Professed his endless, undying love
  He would wait for her.


Salty tears mixed in with the bitter sweetness of the last kiss.
It was done.


She loved him so much
she let go for them both.

The Words She Felt

She stood there before him fully clothed,
yet some how she felt necked as the day she was born.
She had bared her soul and heart to him in thousands of messages.
She told him all but one of her secrets.
He hadn't run, yet.
She had one last truth to tell and she wondered if
He would run when he heard it,
she wondered if he knew,
she wondered if he felt it.
Every part of her mind screamed at her to keep her mouth shut.
Every part of her heart pleaded with her to say the words she swore never to say again.
She let out her held breath,
looked up into
his smoldering eyes
The world fell away leaving just them
As she opened her mouth
Her heart sang.

from no where

The thoughts creep in like they always do...
from out of no where.
Then I'm lost.
Lost in thoughts of him again.
Wondering what he's doing, How is he?
Does he ever have this same problem?
Where I invade his thoughts from out of the blue.
I've come so far
Building walls back up...
protecting my heart.
Remembering how foolish I truly was
to fall so fast, so deep.
Knowing he was never mine,
never to keep, never to touch.
Did he enjoy his game of cat and mouse with my heart?
How crazy I am to feel something?
So back to the start to rebuild walls again.
Till the next time my own mind plays the wreaking ball
pushing him into me again.